LIFE

 I HAVEN'T BEEN POSTING BECAUSE RIGHT NOW ZOEY IS TAKING UP ALOT OF MY TIME AND ENERGY.  I'M WORKING FULL TIME HOURS AND DON'T HAVE MUCH FREE TIME.  

ZOEY IS DECLING IN HER ABILITIES TO WALK AND EAT AND SO IT'S TAKING A TOLL ON ALL OF US.  I'M HAND FEEDING HER NOW AND SHE NEEDS HELP DRINKING WATER.  I KNOW IT'S GETTING CLOSE TO A TIME WHEN WE HAVE TO MAKE A DECISION BUT I'M LETTING GOD HELP US WITH THAT AND HE WILL LET US KNOW.  SHE'S STILL COGNITIVE ENOUGH TO LET US KNOW THAT SHE'S PEED AND OR POOPED AND NEEDS HELP.  BECAUSE OF ALL THE JOY SHE HAS GIVEN US FOR THE LAST 16 YRS, I'M WILLING TO GIVE UP MY TIME TO HELP HER AND LET HER KNOW THAT WERE HERE FOR HER.  

SHE HAS US NOT SLEEPING MUCH AS SHE IS AWAKE ALOT OF THE NIGHT AND SLEEPS DURING THE DAY.  IF SHE'S FED , SHE USUALLY SLEEPS AFTERWARDS.  I'M HOPING AND PRAYING THAT SHE GOES IN HER SLEEP AND WE DON'T HAVE TO MAKE THE DECISION, BUT AGAIN I'M RELYING ON GOD TO MAKE THAT DECISION.  

AGAIN, I SEE MY TIME WITH HER WITH EVERYTHING WEVE GONE THROUGH OVER THE LAST THREE YEARS SINCE LOSING THE 5 OTHER BABIES, AS A SIGN THAT GOD IS GETTING US READY TO LOSE HER AND HAVE TIME WITH HER UNLIKE THE ONES WE PREVIOUSLY LOST.  WE KNEW IT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN, BUT NOT LIKE IT DID, LOSING ONE AFTER ANOTHER.  GOD IS IN CONTROL