WE HAVE BEEN LIED TO.. GOD IS REAL

 FOR GENERATIONS WE HAVE BEEN LIED TO AND CHEATED... WE HAVE BEEN MANIPULATED AND DECIEVED.. BY POLITICIANS AND PEOPLE IN GOVERNMENT AND POLITICS.  

I'VE BEEN PRAYING ALOT LATELY, FOR THIS NATION , FOR THE WORLD.  WE ALL NEED TO PRAY.  WE ALL NEED TO GET BACK TO GOD.. THE REAL GOD.. 

HOW ANYONE CAN QUESTION IF GOD IS REAL IS BEYOND ME>  I DON'T UNDERSTAND IT.  EVERSINCE I WAS A CHILD, I'VE ALWAYS FELT DIFFERNT, AND NOT OF THIS WORLD.  I'M NOT SAYING IM SPECIAL OR KNOW EVERYTHING.. BUT IT'S A SENSE THAT I CAN'T EXPLAIN.  MAYBE IT'S THE FETAL ALCOHOL SYNDROM, MAYBE IT'S GOD.  

AND THEN THERE'S THAT QUESITON WHY DOES GOD ALLOW THINGS TO HAPPEN.????? BECAUSE HE GAVE US FREE WILL ISN'T THE ONLY ANSWER.   BUT HE DID.  

I KNOW THAT IM LIVING PROOF THAT GOD IS REAL.  I KNOW THAT I'VE SEEN THINGS THAT EXPLAIN GOD IS REAL.. BUT THEN I LOOK AT PEOPLE AND SEE THAT THEY ARE SO LOST AND UNAWARE OF WHAT MARVELOUS GOD WE SERVE.  

ALOT OF PEOPLE ARE LAZY AND VERY SELFISH AND DON'T WANT TO SERVE GOD OR BELIEVE IN HIM BECAUSE THEN THEY HAVE TO SEE THEIR WRONG DOINGS AND GIVE UP ALOT TO PLEASE HIM.. I'VE GIVEN UP ALOT TO SERVE HIM AND STILL DOING IT.  

I COULD BE EATING PORK, HAM, BACON, SHELLFISH, LOBSTER, GETTING TATTOOS, DRINKING ALCOHOL, PARTYING, DOING DRUGS, BUT I DON'T BECAUSE ITS WRONG AND GOES AGAINST GODS COMMANDMENTS.  I SMOKE CIGARETTES, THAT'S MY ONLY VICE AND INDULGE IN SUGAR, COFFEE. THAT'S IT.  

I STOPPED EATING THE PORK AND THE SHELLFISH AS SOON AS I FOUND OUT IT WAS AGAINST GODS COMMANDMENTS.  

I GIVE UP COMFORT AND  A LIFE THAT I COULD HAVE IF I WANTED IT. BUT I DON'T .  I WAS PUT IN THIS POSITION FOR A REASON.  WHETHER IT'S FOR MY HUSBAND OR SOMETHING GREATER, IM NOT SURE.  IM STILL WAITING.

FOR AS LONG AS I CAN REMEMBER, I'VE ALWAYS LOVED ANIMALS MORE THAN PEOPLE.  I CAN RELATE TO THEM AND HAVE A CONNECTION, BUT I'VE NEVER WANTED TO BE A PARENT.  I DON'T THINK GOD WANTED ME TO.  I STILL QUESTION IT TO TODAY, BUT I SEE  NOW THAT I WASN'T MEANT TO BE.  

REPENTANCE TESHUVAH

 THE WORD REPENTANCE IS TESHUVAH IN HEBREW.

TO RETURN

TO TURN BACK

TO STOP SINNING.. TO ABANDON SIN. 

BIBLICAL REPENTANCE IS RECOGNIZING THE SIN AND STOPPING FROM DOING IT. 

EZEKIEL 18 

THEREFORE I WILL JUDGE YOU. O HOUSE OF ISRAEL EVERY ONE ACCORDING TO HIS WAYS, DECLARES THE LORD, GOD. REPENT AND TURN FROM ALL YOUR TRANSGRESSIONS. LEST INQUITY BE YOUR RUIN.  CAST AWAY FROM ALL YOUR TRANSGRESSIONS THAT YOU HAVE COMMITTED AND MAKE YOURSELVES A NEW HEART. AND A NEW SPIRIT. WHY WILL YOU DIE O HOUSE OF ISRAEL? FOR I HAVE NO PLEASURE IN THE DEATH OF ANYONE., DECLARES THE LORD O' GOD.  SO TURN AND LIVE. 

Eze 18:5  But if a man be just, and do that which is lawful and right, 

THE TORAH REPEATDLY AFFIRMS THAT REPENTANCE LEADS TO RESTORATION.  

DEUTRONOMY CHAPTER 30.

Repentance and Forgiveness

Deu 30:1  And it shall come to pass, when all these things are come upon thee, the blessing and the curse, which I have set before thee, and thou shalt call them to mind among all the nations, whither the LORD thy God hath driven thee, 

Deu 30:2  And shalt return unto the LORD thy God, and shalt obey his voice according to all that I command thee this day, thou and thy children, with all thine heart, and with all thy soul; 

Deu 30:3  That then the LORD thy God will turn thy captivity, and have compassion upon thee, and will return and gather thee from all the nations, whither the LORD thy God hath scattered thee

SIN LEADS TO EXILE 

REPENTANCE LEADS TO RESTORATION.

REPENTENCE BRINGS FORGIVENESS.

REPENTENCE BRINGS LIFE. 

GOOD VIDEO ON THE SABBATH..

 THIS VIDEO IS A GREAT EXPLANATION OF THE SABBATH AND WHY TO KEEP IT ON SATURDAY.. NOT SUNDAY.  

WE HAVE ALL BEEN LIED TO AND DECIEVED BY SATAN AND HIS MINIONS.. WE NEED PRAYER AND BELIEF AND REPENTANCE IN THIS WORLD.  

DAVID CROWDER

 DAVID CROWDER IS A MUSIC ARTIST THAT I FOLLOW. HIS SINGING AND MUSIC IS BEYOND WORDS AND IMPACTS ME MORE THAN ANY OTHER ARTIST EVER HAS.

I'VE BEEN FOLLOWING HIM FOR ABOUT 20 YRS NOW AND HIS MUSIC AND SONGS GET BETTER AND BETTER.  

I HAVE SEVERAL THAT I FOLLOW, BUT HIS IS THE ONE I GO TO WHEN I NEED AN UPLIFT.  

HE'S COME OUT WITH A NEW SONG AND IT'S REPETITVE, BUT IT'S A GREAT TUNE AND TRUTH. 

 

HIS MUSIC IS POWERFUL AND MEANINGFUL.  I LOVE THE UPBEAT RHYTHM OF HIS MUSIC.  HIS MUSIC MAKES YOU THINK AND FEEL.  

THE FUNNY THING IS THAT HE WAS BORN THE SAME YEAR AS ME AND A FEW MONTHS LATER.  HE'S MARRIED TO HIS HIGH SCHOOL SWEETHEART AND HAVE CHILDREN.  THAT'S ALL I KNOW. I HAVE NEVER BEEN TO ONE OF HIS CONCERTS BUT WOULD LOVE TO GO TO ONE.  

THIS SONG BELOW IS AN AWESOME ONE. THEY DID THIS SONG ON TOP OF A BUILDING IN ATLANTA GEORGIA.  I WOULD HAVE LOVED TO HAVE BEEN THERE. IT'S AN EPIC AND ONE OF HIS BEST SONGS AND TRULY POWERFUL 

GOD IS GREAT, GOD IS GOOD... GOD IS REAL

May 11th 2026 119 Ministries.

 Well i wanted to update to state that I haven't applied yet for the job.  The person that I thought was going to let me, isn't feeling well and so were looking for alternative solutions.  there are a few, but if it doesn't work out, then it's not the right time for it.  I have a vehicle now, but my husband has to do some stuff to it, oil change, and add stereo, and a few other things. . 

I've been praying alot , and asking for Gods guidance.  trying to stay calm and have made several changes lately for my health.  I am not drinking as much coffee now, and we stopped drinking sodas over a year ago.  I've been drinking dandelion tea and trying to detox some of the stuff out of my system.  

There's a great video to watch on YouTube, about Gods timing and what it entails from 119 ministries.  They are very informative and guide you in the right direction while giving the reasons why. They also explain why sometimes the prayers we pray don't get answered and more.   They back up all their information with bible sources.  They are a great channel to follow and listen to.  very informative, they have tons and tons of videos to watch and learn from. 

I need to watch it again and take notes of all the verses they mention.  I need to memorize more of the bible and know the verses.  working on that ... God is great!! God is good, God is real!!!!!!!!

April 27th, 2026

 I've been meaning to write lately.  Alot is happening and it's all Gods doing.  A few weeks ago, I cashed in some of my walmart 401k money to either get a vehicle or to patch up the roof as were getting drips in the house when it rains.. One day before work we went to check out the new rural king here in town before I went to work.. and on the drive from there to my work, we took some back streets and happened across a teal blue jeep wrangler for sale in this guys yard, and we saw that it was in great shape and so we told the guy that we would buy it, since we had the money.. and we did, !!! 

It's a 1997 Jeep wrangler !!! another vehicle of many that we have purchased in the last few years, that is of that same year.  thats the year my mom died and it's a sign that she's watching over me.. 

also at work the other day, a former coworker from my previous job told me that they are hiring again to work from home!!! My friend is going to allow me to do it from her house!!! I can't do it from home because we don't have the house set up for it, and we have the dogs.  So i'm going to apply tomorrow and make sure her internet is strong enough for the position... I only need my laptop and phone and meet the requirements!!! I'm so excited.  I love this job and helping people, The company treated us great and they have bonuses and promotions all the time... I hate to lose the discount from my job at Walmart, but i don't think i can do both.. I was doing 60 hours a week there before.  So hopefully it all works out.. been praying and asking for Gods guidance for this to happen.. God is good. God is great!!!!

Falcor

 Well I've been meaning to post about Falcor, as we lost him a month ago tomorrow.  I knew he was sick and getting bad as he didn't want to get up and go out to eat. He stopped eating his raw chicken legs a month or so before he died.  He was losing weight and not doing well. He had just turned 13 yrs the month he died.  

I prayed to God repeatedly to have him pass on a day that I was off and able to help my husband bury him and that is exactly what happened!! I came home Tuesday night, and he couldn't walk and we knew it was time and we set him up in the hallway with a mattress. We made him comfortable and we didn't go to bed until after 4am.. When we woke up at8 am he had passed.  We buried him in the back yard and now it's only chichi the chihuahua and Honeybun the pug.  THIS IS THE FIRST TIME IN 26 YRS THAT WE HAVE BEEN WITHOUT A LARGE DOG IN THE HOUSEHOLD!!! just like it was the first time of being without a pug in the household after Zoeykins passed.  We have lost several dogs in our time together.  4 German Shepards, * Falcor is the 5th * a rottweiler, bloodhound mix, (5)  7 pugs ,  all of these precious babies lived to be at least 12 yrs old.  

 The house seems empty still without him and were still adjusting, but slowly.  He was a gently giant but quick to jump into action if need be and watched our backs when we went for walks. We miss him dearly.  But know that he's in a better place with all of our other fur babies... running free.