GIVING TESTIMONY TO PEOPLE AND THE WORLD IS PROOF THAT GOD IS REAL AND THAT HE'S WORKING HIS WILL WITHIN US.
IT GIVES GOD STRENGTH AND GIVES HOPE AND PROVES THAT HIS WILL, IS AND GOING TO BE DONE. I'M LIVING PROOF.
ON OCT 25TH 1995 MY MOM CALLED ME AND ASKED ME TO COME OVER AND HELP HER, SHE HAD FALLEN AND WAS BLEEDING AND HAD A GASH ON HER HEAD. I WENT OVER AND SHE HAD A LARGE WOUND THAT WAS BLEEDING AND NEEDED HELP WITH IT. SO I CLEANED IT AND HELPED HER PUT GAUZE ON IT AND MADE SURE SHE WAS ALRIGHT, I STAYED WITH HER FOR AWHILE AND THEN WHEN I DROVE HOME IT HIT ME , I WAS SCARED AND DIDN'T KNOW WHAT IF I HAD DONE WAS ENOUGH, AND I REALIZED THEN THAT WHATEVER I DID OR DIDN'T DO, DIDN'T MATTER. SHE WAS ALREADY DRINKING AGAIN AND I COULDN'T STOP HER. I WAS SCARED AND STARTED CRYING. I CRYED OUT FOR GOD TO HELP HER AND GUIDE HER.
I PRAYED FOR GOD TO HELP AND SAVE MY MOM, AND HE DID, MAYBE NOT IN THE WAY THAT I WANTED BUT HE HEARD MY CRY FOR HELP AND HE ANSWERED MY PRAYER. HE STOPPED HER PAIN AND LOVES HER IN HIS KINGDOM NOW. IT TOOK TWO YEARS OR MORE, BUT GODS TIMING IS HIS NOT OURS. ITS NOT THE OUTCOME THAT I WANTED, BUT SHE WASN'T RELIGIOUS, SHE MIGHT HAVE BELIEVED, BUT AT THE SAME TIME, SHE WASN'T LISTENING TO HIM, AND IF SHE WAS, SHE WASN'T FOLLOWING HIS DIRECTION. ( I WASN'T EITHER) SHE WAS WITH A MAN THAT WAS ALLOWING HER TO DRINK AND USING HER. ON THAT THANKSGIVING WEEKEND I RECIEVED A CALL FROM HER, WANTING ME TO COME FOR THANSGIVING AND I HAD TO TELL HER THAT I COULDN'T I MADE OTHER PLANS TO GO VISIT MY DAD. AND SO THAT WAS THE LAST TIME THAT I HAD TALKED TO HER BEFORE SHE DIED. SHE DIED AS A RESULT OF HER DRINKING WITH HER ESOPHAGUS BLEEDING OUT. BECAUSE SHE MET A MAN THAT TOLD HER IT WAS OK FOR HER TO DRINK.
BE CAREFUL OF WHAT YOU PRAY FOR... IT MIGHT NOT TURN OUT THE WAY THAT YOU EXPECT OR HOPE FOR...
HE ALSO HEARD MY PRAYER WHEN I CRIED OUT TO HIM AFTER MY MOM DIED.
I WAS MARRIED TO A MAN THAT WAS SCHIZOPHRENIC. I HAD BEEN MARRIED TO HIM FOR 4 YRS AND AFTER WE GOT MARRIED HE HAD GONE OFF HIS MEDS AND WENT INTO A DELUSIONAL TAILSPIN WHICH TOOK A YEAR TO RECOVER FROM. SO AFTER THAT AND THEN MY MOM DYING AND DEALING WITH HER ESTATE AND SELLING ALL HER STUFF, AND HER HOUSE, I WAS AT MY WITS END. PLUS WORKING AS A DEPARTMENT MANAGER AT WALMART FULL TIME. I WAS BEYOND STRESSED OUT AND DESPERATE FOR HELP AND GUIDANCE. I JUST WANTED TO GIVE UP AND DIDN'T KNOW WHERE TO TURN TO. MY HUSBAND WASN'T HELPING ME, IT WASN'T A MARRIAGE, HE WAS SLEEPING ALL THE TIME, AND DIDN'T WANT TO DO MUCH OF ANYTHIG. I CAME HOME FROM WORK ONE DAY AND TOOK A SHOWER AND I REMEMBER I CRIED OUT TO GOD TO HELP ME AND GUIDE ME AND SHOW ME THE WAY TO HIM. I REMEMBER HEARING THE WORDS "MOVE TO FLORIDA" JUST THOSE THREE WORDS. NOTHING MORE. AND ONCE I HEARD THOSE WORDS, IT WAS LIKE I WAS IN A TRANCE AND COULDN'T STOP. I STARTED PLANNING AND FIGURING OUT HOW TO MOVE TO FLORIDA. NOTHING WAS GOING TO STOP ME. IT FELT LIKE, NOW THAT I LOOK BACK, SOMEONE HAD CONTROL OF ME AND MY EVERY MOVEMENT. I DIDN'T STOP.
I MADE PLANS, I SOLD EVERYTHING AND MOVED TO FLORIDA, I EVEN HAD MY EX HUSBAND DRIVE ME DOWN THERE AND I PUT HIM ON A PLANE BACK TO MASS A FEW DAYS LATER. MY SISTER HAD FOUND ME A TRAILER TO MOVE INTO FOR A MONTH AND THEN INFORMED ME THAT I NEEDED TO FIND A NEW PLACE. I REMEMBER LOOKING FOR AN APARTMENT OR A ROOM TO RENT IN HER NEWSPAPER AT HER HOUSE ONE DAY AND PICKING OUT A ROOM TO RENT. I CALLED THE LADY AND MADE ARRANGEMENTS TO SEE IT. WHEN I DID GO TO SEE IT, SHE SHOWED ME THE ROOM AND THEN WE SAT DOWN IN THE KITCHEN AND WE WERE TALKING ABOUT THINGS AND THEN HE WALKED IN. MY HUSBAND. I FELL HEAD OVER HEELS IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT!!
HE WAS 8 YRS SOBER AND THINGS HAPPENED THAT PUT US TOGETHER AND THERE WERE NO OTHER OPTIONS. I EVEN GOT TOLD THAT I HAD TO MOVE OUT BECAUSE THE LADY THAT OWNED THE PLACE HAD A FALLING OUT WITH HIM WHILE I WAS THERE, AND BECAUSE I WAS BECOMING FRIENDS WITH HIM, I HAD TO MOVE OUT. I DIDN'T HAVE MONEY TO MOVE OUT MUCH LESS RENT ANOTHER PLACE, I HAD JUST PAID HER. SHE WAS BEING TOTALLY UNREASONABLE. SO I WAS DESPERATE AND I ASKED TRISTAN IF I COULD STAY WITH HIM FOR AWHILE, TILL I COULD SAVE SOME MONEY AND FIND A PLACE. AND WELL HE WAS LIVING IN A WAREHOUSE DOWN IN HOLLYWOOD AND DIDN'T REALLY EXPECT THIS, BUT SAID YES. I SWEAR GOD WORKED MIRACLES TO PUT US TOGETHER!!! ( I THINK MY MOM PICKED HIM.. LOL)
MY HUSBAND CELEBRATED HIS 30 YR ANNIVESARY LAST SEPTEMBER AND WILL BE CELEBRATEING ANOTHER ONE THIS YEAR. GOD HAS ALWAYS PROVIDED FOR US AND WE ALWAYS THANK HIM FOR EVERYTHING EVEN THE HARD TIMES , BECAUSE THAT MAKES US HUMBLE AND THANKFUL FOR HIS PRESENCE THAT IS LOVING AND CARING.
Mat 7:7 Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you:
Mat 7:8 For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.
I WISH EVERYONE IN THE WORLD WOULD KNOW HIS LOVE AND KINDNESS.
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