DAY 6

 

GOD WOKE ME UP AND IT'S A BEAUTIFUL DAY OUTSIDE.  I HAVE FED EVERYONE AND I'VE DONE MY SWAGBUCKS THAT I DO EVERYDAY.  AND THROUGH ALL THIS I'M STILL REMINDED OF HER AND MISSING HER. BUT THE IRONY OF IT , IS THAT I'M MISSING THEM ALL SO MUCH NOW THAT IT HITS ME HARD BECAUSE ITS SO PROMINENT WITH NOT HAVING A PUG IN THE HOUSE.  IT MAKES THE PAIN OF WHAT WE'VE BEEN THROUGH THESE LAST 5 YEARS SO MUCH MORE POWERFUL AND PAINFUL BECAUSE OF THE LOSS OF HER. LIKE I SAID SHE WAS THE OLDEST LIVING PUG THAT WE'VE EVER BY OWNED BY .  WE DON'T OWN THEM, THEY OWN US.  THEY GRACE US WITH THEIR UNDCONDITIONAL LOVE AND HAPPINESS.  THEY ARE LITTLE ANGELS SENT FROM GOD TO MAKE THIS WORLD AND LIFE HERE ON EARTH SO MUCH BETTER. THEY ARE UNIQUE AND ADORABLE.  I DON'T FEEL LIKE THAT TOWARDS ANY OTHER ANIMAL.  

WITH THE GRACE OF GOD WITH HIS PRESCENCE WE WILL GO ON, AND MAYBE SOME DAY A PUG WILL BE PUT IN OUR PATH. I'M LEAVING IT UP TO GOD. WERE NOT GOING TO SEARCH FOR ONE OR LOOK.. GOD WILL LEAD US THROUGH THIS.  I'M SURRENDERING TO GOD AND HIS GRACE.  

WE HAVE A GARDEN TO GROW AND A BACK YARD TO CLEAN UP .  WE HAVE A HOUSE TO GET IN ORDER AND A GERMAN SHEPARD AND A CHIHUAHUA THAT NEED OUR ATTENTION.  

OH AND GOD GAVE ME A GIFT YESTERDAY. I GOT A PAY RAISE!!! WE ARE GOING TO BE MAKING $13.00 AN HOUR IN THE DELI NOW!! GOD IS GREAT!!! I THANKED HIM AS SOON AS I WAS TOLD.. 

THE PHOTO I PUT ABOVE IS PROBABLY ONE OF THE FEW OF THE FIVE PUGS TOGETHER, THAT'S NOT THEM SLEEPING.  5 PUGS 5 YEARS OF HEARTACHE.. WHEN MY HUSBAND AND I WERE AT OUR 20 YRS OF BEING TOGETHER WE WERE DOWN TO WHAT WE STARTED WITH A MALE GERMAN SHEPARD AND A FEMALE PUG.  NOW THAT IS GOD DOING HIS AWESOME WORK AND LETTING US KNOW.  ANYWAY I HAVE STUFF TO DO AND ALL.  GOD BLESS AND GOD IS GREAT EVEN AMONGST THE HEARTACHE AND SADNESS I STILL PRAISE HIM.. SEE HOW THAT WORKS??? IT'S AWESOME.